October 16, 2011
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Another Random Pregnancy Update...
I've been half writing blog posts and then saving them in private for the past couple of weeks. I've promised myself I would catch up on these posts during our 6th anniversary/babymoon trip but the internet connection here has been pretty spotty.
Sorry to anyone that randomly stops by -I'm the worst blogger ever (I can't even call myself a blogger)!
So here's a random update pieced together from other posts I intended to share...
1) From talking with mom friends I've learned that you really can't plan for your birth. You can prepare yourself by reading books, taking classes, doing tons of research, etc but there's really no telling what kind of birth you'll have until it happens. I have a really good mom friend that prepped for months to have a natural, birthing center birth (as little medical intervention as possible) and she ended up having an emergency c section because the baby was breech and his umbilical cord was wrapped around his neck twice. Ack!
Another mom friend said she planned on having an epidural but labor was so quick and unexpected that she didn't make it to the hospital in time to receive the epidural. She was basically 9 centimeters dilated when she finally got to a labor and delivery room and then it was time to push.
I'm going to do my best to educate myself on the various types of birth, what my options are medically and then pray for the best. This might sound super passive but in my mind I do have an ideal birth plan and preferences. I just don't want to get so caught up in what I want that I become inflexible to what's best for the baby.
2) I thought pregnancy would be much harder on me physically but the hard part has been the emotional aspect of pregnancy. I don't want to complain; I'm thankful my body has taken to pregnancy relatively well (minor morning sickness, no major aches and pains, energy level pretty normal). I'm just surprised that emotionally I feel more challenged now than I ever have in my life.
At first I thought maybe it was lingering fear and worry from my previous miscarriage, but as time went on I began to have random nightmares, extremely silly fears and worries and then insomnia. All of these things are so rare for me. I'm normally a very optimistic and positive person and haven't had nightmares since I was 6 (at least any I can recall). Also, the random insomnia is the most bizarre thing to happen to me since I usually sleep like a rock.
Thankfully I've been able to talk to my pastor and his wife about these fears and random issues and realized that this happens to a lot of pregnant women. All the changes going on make me feel vulnerable and sort of like things are totally out of wack -which in a way they are. I received a lot of prayer and encouragement and also found some great books on pregnancy that have eased the worries.
There's so much I can't control but I'm at peace knowing that I'm not alone in my fears. I no longer dwell on them and have been able to better identify triggers and respond to them in healthy way.
3) I really miss sleeping on my stomach and back. That's all. Just wanted to put it out there.
Ok next post will be a massive picture update! I've promised friends and family pictures and haven't forgotten!
